How do you wish to bloom?
This is Jamie's wish cast question today.
I have not been feeling my self these days. I had a week off recently, much needed after a disastrous time in the work place and craved to be doing the things i loved. Taking photographs, meeting up with long lost friends, spring cleaning, and going outside to discover Spring.
But when I finally did get that time off, I did little. Very little. I do not know what it was, I had no desire to set foot outside, I rotted in the house, sometimes with big fella leaving the house in the morning only to find me sat in the same place exactly where he left me hours ago with a blank expression on my face and nothing but empty coffee mugs filling the place. I just wanted hugs off big fella. I couldn't even really blog, I kept on typing BLAH.
I started work again only to be in the same mood, not sad, not happy just blah. Blah, blah, blah. My only way to describe it. It was not until a dear friend took me aside and asked if everything was OK. "Yeah." was my reply, but really sounded more like a yawn. Then she asked " I have not upset you have I?" Oh no! I apologised immediately. I did not realise that my mood certainly effected others. I am also sure my face looked like a bulldog chewing a wasp. (I have been told that before.)
I felt awful that she felt it was her doing for my blah mood. I am determined to bloom, find my happy mood again and if I can't find it, at least smile once in a while. I guess we all have these blue moods, but I thought I had become pretty good at masking this mood in front of others. Until now. That was the kick up the bum I needed. I would not like to think at all I was upsetting others for my blahness. So I will bloom again. Slowly but certainly surely! I hope all is well in your world.