Thursday, 5 November 2009

Very Strange

Hello, quick post to ya. If you read my last post, it was a bit of a downer and I do not like really putting stuff like that to post, only because I am not very good at talking about it either. Any ho, there may have been a reason for this.

I got up early and decided to get my wish casting post in on time for once, and when thinking about the question, I had a sudden urge of sadness come over me, like a death and I started to cry. I didn't know why, but in crying got me thinking of my mum and that is why I wrote that post.
Then something sad happened. About twenty minutes later big fella rung me with the news that his Grandmother had died suddenly that morning. I don't know, I just felt perhaps that was the reason I got so upset. Maybe, maybe not.

So it is a sombre mood in our place and I have cuddles and hot chocolate on stand by for big fella.
Thank you for your lovely, uplifting comments and reading them give me hope and a shiver of Christmas glow! I want more of that feeling, so I have to make Christmas special this year! I am going to put my Christmas list on my side bar of things I will be doing to celebrate Christmas and remember to smile!

So the wheel of change is forever turning, as I sit here listening to the rain fall like nails on the window, and feeling a chill in the air as Jack Frost will soon make his presence known.


All the best!

14 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Hugs to you and the big fella. November is just that kind of month.

Holly said...

Big Fella understands things that the rest of us still struggle to learn. And, in large part, that's why he has found you. Still, loss is loss and needs to be acknowledged because to do so is what makes us real and Human.

Claire, I send love from across The Pond, and also want to say,

As this Dear One wishes so for herself, with love and intention I wish it for her, also.

Blessings on your heart and home this day.

Barbara said...

Hugs, Claire! So sorry about your husband's grandma. And no worries about posting your feelings here. If not here, where? Take care, hon and do something nice for yourself and big fella today.

Rudee said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs.

Bella Foxglove said...

Hugs and love sent to you and your family....

Rue said...

Hugs and healing to you and Big Fella. I miss my grandmother every day and she's been gone for 20 years now. I know you will give each other the comfort you need.

The thing about November is, after all the introspection, comes December, and then the light returns again! Things to look forward to.

The romantic query letter and the happy-ever-after said...

My condolences and very best wishes to you both.
All my very best,
Simone
oxoxo

Alicia @ boylerpf said...

Oh, Claire, you never need to feel like your post was a downer. We come to you for the ups and the downs...help if you need it on the way. I am so sorry about your loss and big hugs going out to you and the big fella. Time heals the heart but it never lets us forget our loved ones.

Dede said...

Hugs to you and Big Fella. I am so sorry.....

(((HUGS)))

Bella Sinclair said...

Oh, Claire. I just read your previous post. I'm so sorry for your tragic loss, and it's understandable that Christmas is filled with such emotion for you, both good and bad. And hugs to Big Fella as well. You are lucky to have each other to give comfort. Your photograph is astonishingly beautiful, the way the light is streaming down like that. It's magical.

xoxo

beth said...

my thoughts are with you...and we are all here to support each other in the ups or the downs of life...
big hugs...

Shell said...

I'm sorry for your loss, Claire. I do believe you were tuning in and did sense his gram's death.
We are all connected.

Bridgett said...

I suspect you were feeling the loss of Big Fella's grandmother without even knowing it...

I'm very sorry, Claire.

Love you oodles!

)O(
boo

Sarah said...

Aw hon I am so sorry..geesh..where the heck have I been. Craziness here is no excuse for having missed your post. Hugs to you both...I understand about the tears hon..I do. Love Sarah