Jamie asked us this week,
What do wish to give yourself permission?
What do wish to give yourself permission?
I want permission to let go of the fear and get out there! Last year (and the years before that), I was a chicken. I went out there, had all these great ideas, applied for amazing things, filled in application forms and at the last minute bottled it,scared of what might just happen. But 2010, year of fun people!
Here's the plan of action for 2010 so far!
* Trapeze lessons
Now, how I would just love to say, "Yes that is me in the stripy top swinging and twirling on the bar!" But wait, look at this next picture
Do you see in the background, that awkward oaf, clinging on to dear life to the trapeze bar? Yep, that's me.
I love it though, this week was fantastic! I did get a wee bit scared at one point though and stopped for a while. I was hanging face down hanging by my feet on the ropes to be fair.
* Writing pieces and submitting photography for a monthly magazine in Liverpool.
Very excited about this. When I was being introduced to the idea, they warned me that it would be unpaid. My answer was, "So?" This is great! I get to write about places I love and have my photography published? WWWWAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
* African Drumming lessonsOh yes, to the beat of a drum I am pounding out music and rhyme baby! I enjoy it so much, the instructor has been invited to my workplace to let the kiddies have a go!
*Face painting course
I think I might just run away with the circus after this. I loved getting my face painted when I was young and I am enrolling on a course for later in the year at work to develop some of these skills!
* Running for charity in July
It is for Cancer research and I am going pound my feet so hard on the pavement, just as hard as I want to stamp out this horrific disease.
* Finish off that bloody degree!
I was at the final part of my second degree (gluten for punishment) in Early Years Studies, when I was surprisingly, especially for me,offered the job in which I am currently at. It sweeped me up like a whirlwind and my feet have not touched the ground since. I postponed the final part due to this, (which is basically a day of showing everything I done in my workplace after a year long placement) and I never set a new date for it to be completed. The longer I left it, the worse it became. How silly of me! So basically, last week I sent a email to my uni explaining all, and two seconds later I got a reply saying they will come out in June and would that suit? How simple was that? Procrastination and me? Ahh, yes we know each other well. I am a twit sometimes. So by September I should hopefully graduate and this silly mess will be over and a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. Lesson learned.
*Audition for open mic night and belt out a tune!
I do love singing and music, and was in the good ole school choir in school.
Any road, I love a good sing song, though in recent years my confidence has taken a battering for some reason and I refused to let people even know I could sing when I was in uni to this day. The only time I let my guard down was when some mates and I went to a karaoke bar and silly Claire here was enchanted at the two drinks for one offer in the student bar, got legless and belted out River Deep, Mountain High and won first prize.
Regrettably I can not remember a thing and gave my prize to the bar man, telling him he was the best thing that could ever happened to me and thanking him for a glorious evening before collapsing in heap only to be dragged out by security. I had a great night. So I have been told. I will do it sometime in the near future. No alcohol allowed.
*Setting up my own wee stall, with wee trinkets and gifts made by moi!
Just got the application form for my very own stall at our local arts and crafts market for May 2010! Weeeeeee! I am over the moon about this. I applied for the same one last year, had all my creations ready for the next day, and suddenly freaked out and cancelled, saying I had the flu. I had business cards printed and everything. Twit!
So this year, I am really going to do it. I have tons of ideas and I am confident I will pull this off. Even if people just comment on my gifts good or bad would be great. I am doing smaller stalls to start off with to see how it goes and then at Christmas I have applied a plot at a huge one, so huge you had to apply now if all goes well! I have to do it, I have paid for my plots and everything! No backing out now! I want to sell some art work, some photography and some other wee tricks up my sleeve! Hopefully I will set up a blog, twitter, face book, the lot for it!
I do hope to add to my list as the year rolls on.
So I wish to give my self permission to let go of all the fear and go for it! Reading back, I am thinking to myself, why wouldn't I? It sounds like fun!